Thursday, January 27, 2011

Saya Blogger Perantau (Part Time Full Time)

Well, I guess that's how I see this blog for the time being. I have been in Melbourne completing my PhD from 2008 and soon I will be back home catching up on life post PhD and by that time I can no longer claim my blog as a 'Perantau' blog ;-) 

Regardless, if people asked me what is it about life abroad while doing your PhD that bugs me the most, I'd say I miss carefree, 'no purpose' friendship..WTH??? ha..ha..ha... No really, when they say PhD is a lonely journey, (all those wise people who have been through it all) they are right!! I am lonely, and at times miserable. I surely cannot imagine how some people who went through it with no family or loved ones tagging along actually manage to complete it and keep their sanity.

A chance meet with a couple of friends today and spending hours chatting away about life ... and death with them, made me realised how I sorely missed those days when friends were just friends, and life was not surrounded by everything P, H and D!! Well, I guess, it's going to be over soon, although not soon enough. For the moment I will just pore out my heart into this blog.

P/S: Sungguh teringin nak makan kuih kaswi/kasui. And if it's up to me, I have to wait another year to taste some :-(  

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Tangled

Tangled with all my data and chapters is exhausting my thinking ability. So I decided to take a break and bring Aliyah watch 'TANGLED'. Warning! This is not a review nor a promo, but I am seriously touched by the movie, the only other animated movie apart from Beauty and the Beast which brought tears to my eyes. And I am amazed how Allah has given all these people the creativity to do so (touch people) through well...cartoon, though a fancy one at that :-) 



I see the light :-)

Most of the songs are beautiful, especially the love duet 'I see the light' sung by Rapunzel (Mandy Moore) and Flynn/Eugene (Zachary Levi aka Chuck - I did not know he can really, really sing). The song was the background of the best scene of the movie - the uplifting 'lantern scene'. But I really personally love the song 'Mother knows best' sung by the antagonist - Mother Gothel. It was catchy, performed brilliantly by Donna Murphy and in my opinion represents how mothers can be overly protective of their children. I admit at times  I see nothing wrong in that, and as a mother myself I was 'guilty' of such 'smothering' act. But I believe we should abide by the principles of wasatiyyah (balanced and moderate) even in parenting. That is the best. 

Well, as for my work, now that I have been 'Tangled' and uplifted, I am praying that I will be able to untangle myself and 'see the light', Insya Allah :-))

(Video Courtesy of LichKing)

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Worthy

Nothing sets you way back, than when there’s a death in the family. Suddenly you start contemplating and analyzing, and questioning your mortality, and judging your ‘worth’ in this world. Have I done enough? Am I worthy of my life in the eyes of the Almighty? Will I be able cross to the other side technically, in peace, and literally, in one piece?  
Well, as for today the song Affirmation sums up my feeling:
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned

I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists

I believe in love surviving death into eternity

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Rezekiku di Barnes Way - 2


Apabila kami mula menginap di 45 Barnes Way 2 ½ tahun lepas, aku tidak lah meletakkan harapan terlalu tinggi utk unit apartment aku ni. It's one of the oldest units in the complex, with a funny layout and design to it. Jadi tak kiralah betapa hebatnya kreativitiku dlm aktiviti menghias rumah, 45 BW akan kekal 'keras, beku & kelabu' he..he..he.. In fact byk kali juga, aku berkira2 nak pindah. Setiap tahun kecuali tahun lepas, apabila nak renew lease, aku pun mulalah mengempen (betul ke ejaan ni?) DH utk pindah. Dan setiap kali juga, DH akan memberatkan badan & hatinya, meringankan koceknya dan eventually hati aku pun tertutup jua. Maka kekal lah kami di Barnes Way sehingga kini.

Tapi betullah kata pepatah, tuah ayam nampak di kakinya, tuah orang siapa yang tahu. Kadang2 kita berasa yang sesuatu itu terbaik buat kita, tetapi hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang lebih baik buat kita. Firmannya di dalam Surah Al-Baqarah: “… Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (2: 216)

Sesungguhnya Allah itu Benar! Di hujung tahun 2009, oleh kerana aku salah seorang ‘penduduk’ BW, maka melayakkan aku untuk memohon sebagai salah seorang Residential Assistant (RA) utk Barnes Way/ Waterdale Road (BW/WR) Apartments bagi pihak Division of Residential Services (DRS) Latrobe University. Alhamdulillah, masuk tahun ini, adalah tahun kedua aku memegang jawatan RA ini. Jawatan ini lebih berupa seperti Pegawai Pembangunan Pelajar (PPP) kalau masa di UiTM dulu, tetapi dgn tanggungjawab yang lebih minima, memandangkan kebanyakan pelajar2 yg tinggal di Barnes Way & Waterdale Apartments adalah pelajar2 matang dan berkeluarga. Walaupun jawatan ini tidak bergaji (untuk mengelakkan kami dikenakan cukai), sebagai RA kami diberikan potongan sewa rumah dan yuran wajib, seperti Internet dan maintenance. Pada akhir tahun perkhidmatan pula, pihak DRS bagi mcm2 hadiah, termasuk gift kad dan hamper. Mungkin pada sesetengah org tidak berapa lumayan, tp pada aku sgt berbaloi utk tugasan utama hanya selama 4 hari sebulan, itupun selepas waktu pejabat, di mana aku hanya wajib ‘stand by’ di rumah sahaja.

Dan yang paling penting, aku dpt menimba pengalaman meneliti bagaimana pihak DRS Latrobe University mengendalikan kolej2 mereka, cara etika kerja mereka, cara mereka mengendalikan masalah berkaitan pelajar, kelebihan dan kekurangan yang mereka hadapi. I am no longer that person outside looking inside, I am inside now. Tapi untuk berada ‘di dalam’ bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah. Kebanyakan majikan di sini amat mementingkan ‘referee’ drpd majikan2 lepas. Sehinggakan ada yg sanggup membeli surat2 ‘referee’ ini dgn harga beribu2 dollar, kadang2 semata-mata untuk dapatkan kerja di supermarket! Ini selalunya dilakukan oleh pendatang2 asing yg ingin menetap terus di sini. Masa memohon pada akhir tahun 2009 yang lepas, aku tidak punya referee lain selain supervisor aku shj. Tapi Alhamdulillah, berdasarkan pengalaman sebagai PPP di UiTM sebelum ini dan sudah rezeki baby baru - Luqman maka aku berjaya ‘melolos’ masuk :-).

Bekerja dgn mat saleh dan beberapa international students/staffs lain ni bukanlah sesuatu yg sgt menyeronokkan. Bukannya boleh makan minum dan berjamuan sesuka hati. Semuanya perlu berkira halal dan haramnya. Bukan itu shj, aku dah lah Muslim, bertudung pulak tu, so I basically stick out like a sore thumb! Sungguh tak selesa & tak best hu…hu…hu... Tp mengenangkan nak menimba ilmu dan pengalaman, aku redah jerlah. Setakat ini yang aku nampak di DRS ni, in general mereka adalah sangat tolerant, honest dan mempunyai PR yg bagus.

Tolerant – sbb mereka cuba sedaya upaya untuk mengambil kira mereka2 yg drpd latarbelakang dan agama berbeza dan menghormati perbezaan tersebut. So takder lah kes nak offer makanan yg tak halal atau non-vegetarian kpd Muslim or some vegetarian (Indians, especially). In fact, vegetarian food adalah makanan wajib hidang di function2 uni sekarang ini.

Honest – sbb apa yg mereka dapati salah maka mereka maklumkan ianya salah ataupun bukan hak mereka, tiada ‘cover2’. Kadang2 malu juga, sbb non-Muslim ni pulak yg lebih jujur sometimes drpd some Muslims that I know of (may or may not include myself? isk..isk..isk). Contohnya, apabila salah seorang drp RA tahun lepas telah mendapat diskaun sewa lebih drpd yang sepatutnya, maka dia dgn segera telah memaklumkan kpd pihak DRS akan kesilapan tersebut, instead of ambik sikap ‘diam2’ aje.

PR bagus – sbb hatta bila nak marah atau nak maklumkan kesilapan seseorang pun ada tatasusilanya. Bukan main sembur aje. Dan kalau kerja kita bagus akan diberikan pujian dan acknowldgement sewajarnya walaupun ianya sesuatu yg kecil shj.

Begitulah adanya bagaimana penempatanku di Barnes Way ini telah memberi lebih banyak pengalaman berkenaan pentadbiran dan pengurusan kolej universiti. Semoga pengalaman ini kelak boleh dibawa pulang bagi menambahbaik pengurusan di tempat sendiri Insya Allah.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

The King's Speech: Preview

I have never been that excited over a period/historic(al) movie that much before, that is until this one.  Well for starters 'The King's Speech' had Colin Firth and Geoffrey Rush in it, both excellent actors.

Then came the fact that the movie is  based on how King George VI (born Albert Frederick Arthur George), who was the current Queen's (Elizabeth) father, overcome a stammer problem with the help of a speech therapist Lionel Logue.

A lot of people might have known about King George VI's brother, Edward who abdicated the throne in order to marry the twice divorced  American socialite, Wallis Simpson. But not so much about George (Albert/Bertie). As the second son of King George V, George (Albert/Bertie) had always been spending his life in the shadows of his brother, Edward, and was not expected to inherit the throne.

So when Edward ascended the throne as Edward VIII on the death of their father in 1936, but later revealed his desire to marry Wallis Simpson, the then British Prime Minister Stanley Baldwin advised Edward that, for political and religious reasons, he would not be able to remain king if he continued with his plan (to marry Simpson). So due to the abdication, George (Albert/Bertie) ascended the throne as the third monarch of the House of Windsor.

The movie brought to light several facts that appeal to me - amongst others;
  • how someone as powerful (well maybe not as much as he wants to be) as the King of England, had to struggle with stammer problem everytime he had to give a speech to the nation. What more, he was thrown into war time, and had to compete (speech-wise) with Hitler, who in comparison was a great orator (even if he's a ruthless murderous dictator). It was painful to see him trying to carry such weight (in addressing his people, and not being able to do so with ease), and even more painful to see those close to him trying even harder to help him overcome such disadvantage.
  • how the way a child was raised can severely affected his/her future development. Regardless of your life background, rich, poor, middle class, evidently mental abuse and love deprivation can have long impacted a child's life, even after the abuse and deprivations had ceased to take place. 
  • how behind every great man; there's always a great woman leading towards his success.
  • how a true great friendship is devoid of any expectations of reciprocal advantage. One tries to be the best of friends, with no (other) implied intentions.  
And I think one of the best quote of the movie (in the clip below) - when Lionel chastised Bertie for wanting to smoke, really makes my day. It's spot on and very funny, and the most important of all, it's the best campaign against smoking I have seen in movies so far :-).


When Albert (Bertie) first met Lionel...

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Lionel Logue: [as George "Bertie" is lighting up a cigarette] Don't do that in here.


King George VI: Why not?


Lionel Logue: Sucking smoke into your lungs will kill you.


King George VI: My physicians tell me it helps to relax the throat.


Lionel Logue: They're idiots.


King George VI: They've been knighted.


Lionel Logue: Makes it official then.

I LOL every single time I replay this !

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Akhirnya Brisbane Tenggelam Jua...

Sprinkle some pixie dusts, think of happy thoughts and fly away...well at least that would be on the minds of some of those affected by the flood disaster in Queensland, Australia...If only they could :-( 

Images of Brisbane CBD - Courtesy SMH
Hari ini Pusat Bandar Brisbane mula ditenggelami air, selepas hampir seminggu 3 minggu beberapa bahagian Queensland yg lain dilanda banjir. Hampir 35 kawasan perumahan di pinggir2 bandar Brisbane juga akan turut sama ditenggelami air. Pihak berkuasa Queensland pula terpaksa melepaskan air Empangan Wivenhoe secara berkala ke Sungai Brisbane yg sudah sedia melimpah ruah, untuk mengelakkannya drpd pecah. 

Sebelum2 ini, sememangnya ada beberapa kawasan pedalaman Queensland yg kerap kali mengalami banjir, tetapi Brisbane selalunya tidak terjejas. Namun kali ini tidak lagi, menunjukkan betapa hebatnya banjir awal Januari ini. Esok pagi, jam 4, adalah penentu segalanya, apabila dijangkakan paras air bah akan mencecah 5 meter, yang terburuk dlm sejarah Brisbane selepas bah besar tahun 1974. Walaupun tidak seperti bushfires di Victoria yang melibatkan banyak kehilangan nyawa, banjir di Queensland setakat ini meragut 12 15 18 nyawa, namun kerugian harta benda dan ekonomi dijangkakan bakal mencecah 5 billion dollar!

Ramai juga sahabat2 dan rakyat Malaysia yang sedang melanjutkan pelajaran di Queensland, terutamanya di Brisbane sendiri yang terlibat. Setakat ini khabarnya semuanya selamat, Alhamdulillah. Tetapi sedih juga mengenangkannya, sudahlah di negara orang dgn kemudahan terhad, kemudian mengalami pula musibah sebegini. Dugaan besar buat mereka. Semoga Allah tabahkan hati mereka dan permudahkan kehidupan mereka selepas ini, Insya Allah.

Sementara itu, sekiranya ada sesiapa teman2, sahabat2, rakan2 terutamanya di Australia yg ingin membantu, bolehlah menderma ke tabung Derma Kilat Brisbane melalui VMPGA, yg bakal disampaikan kepada pihak MSD dlm masa terdekat ini. Harapannya bantuan ini dapatlah memudahkan mereka sedikit sebanyak dlm meneruskan kehidupan selepas banjir ini nanti.
 
Sila salurkan bantuan anda ke account berikut:
 
Account Name: VICTORIA MALAYSIAN POSTGRADUATE ASSOCIATION
BSB Number: 063019
Account Number: 1031 2619
Bank Name: The Commonwealth Bank
Keterangan transaksi: derma brisbane

Terima kasih.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

A Special Day in January


At 8.17 a.m, the same day today, last year, I met my sweet Luqman for the first time :-). The labour was in the beginning bearable, like when I was having Uwais. The contractions started on Friday from 11 pm. I was already at the hospital by 4 a.m. At the same level of pain with Uwais last time, I was estimating that I would be giving birth by 6 am the latest. I hated to be induced, so I thought I wanted to hang on till the very last minute before I reached the labour room. Inducement meant you are basically stuck to your bed, with very restricted movements due to the drips and all the CTG machines stuck to your belly. And when I am in labour pain, that’s the least thing I wanted to do. Usually, after 8 cm, no more induced labour is necessary.

However, at the hospital, it seems that my opening was only around 4 cm, which meant the opportunity window for inducing the labour is still there. I beg not to, but the attending doctor, insisted it’s standard procedure :-( ???. So they tried breaking my amniotic sac, which I was sure was still there, since I don’t feel any trickling water at all throughout my time at home that night. But they somewhat couldn’t find the sac ??? They tried a second time an hour later, but still nada!! Meanwhile, they put a drip in one of my hands/arms and started the inducement. By 7 am I was only around 8 cm, and because of the inducement, the contractions were getting rather difficult to handle. They were coming in succession every minute, but unfortunately the opening from 8cm to 10 cm which usually comes in less than an hour was dragging on pass the half and hour mark, and I was still not having that ‘pushing’ sensation!!

And the baby was already in distress. I knew that, although they didn’t inform me of such (fearing I will be stressed out) because the nurses, midwife and doctors were ever coming and going looking at the print out from the CTG machines, whispering amongst themselves and always asking me not to move (fearing that movement will somewhat entangled the baby with the umbilical cord). But that's difficult to do when you are in pain! I was already growing restless, tired and cranky, of course. I asked every nurse that came by to check how far am I, every time. So finally one of the senior sister, asked me whether I wanted to speed things up? Of course, I said yes…I was under distress and pain. I didn’t expect that she was expecting a negative answer from me. She said she will try and help intervene in the final opening of the cervix, which involved her putting a gel and ‘wriggling’ the cervix up with her fingers. And the pain involved, truth be told, was even worst than active labour itself!! In fact, the sister kept apologising to me for doing so, throughout the process up until after the birth. But because as soon as the opening was 10 cm, the pushing sensation arrived, I didn’t have the time to ponder or think on the pain of that intervention. Regardless, I surely remembered it was painful, like an inside part of you is being ripped off literally!!!

Since the baby was in distress (which they never told you, anyway), they were actually giving a time line for me to push the baby (which they never told you, too), I actually had less than an hour to do so. I was already very tired and several pushes didn’t seem to bring Luqman out. I even went pass crowning, but he somewhat got stuck there. Suddenly, out of nowhere my labour room is filled up with nurses, I think almost 6-7 of them, (compared to the normal 2 +1 Dr or midwife from my previous experiences). And I saw one of them shoving the vacuum machine in (which I knew based on my experience giving birth to Aliyah - she was vacuumed, due to me being too subdued with epidural to have any pushing sensation – never again will I try that thing!!) I knew, that I have very limited choice now, it’s either I pushed him out or they will start vacuuming him. And no way am I going to go through the healing process going through a vacuum birth ever again, so I used up all my might and with two more pushes, he’s out. Alhamdulillah. Relief all over me, for a while that was.

Luqman was whimpering a bit and he was not that messy maybe because of the lack of the amniotic sac. They wrapped him up and gave him to me. He was so alert and just looked at me quietly. The sister then took him away to give him an APGAR test, while one other nurse stitched up my episiotomy. Anyway, it seems Luqman was not passing part of the APGAR test. I could hear him cry and all, but the doctor suspected some form of lung infections, due to the missing sac and the prolonged active labour phase. He must be further monitored in the next 24 hours at the Neonatal ICU immediately. I asked to breastfeed him for a while, and the sister was kind enough to allow me to do so for a few minutes, before he was incubated and pushed to the NICU. He was latching and suckling successfully, so I was actually quite stunned that there was actually anything wrong with him, but at that very moment I was too tired to process it all yet. But that brief breastfeeding session, actually gave me some consolation that he’ll be fine, soon.

I only got to see him 4 hours later, all wired up to an oxygen tank being only in his diaper. The doctors are putting him on a course of antibiotics and 3 litres of oxygen to assist his breathing. He was diagnosed with TTN or ‘wet lungs’. He was crying his heart out! It just brought tears to my eyes seeing him like that. No mothers should see her baby like that. But being in the NICU, I observed other babies, newborns and a few months old, most were in a far worst condition that Luqman. They were premature (they referred to as prem-babies), some with heart conditions, some with serious birth defects, and some babies or may I say mothers, waiting on and counting the days left on the lives of their baby. And when you talk to them, these mothers were as calm, as calm can be. It was a heart wrenching sight :-(

A captured video shot of Luqman several hours post delivery
 (secretly taken in the NICU no photo zone)
 But Luqman, Alhamdulillah, made it through in less than 24 hours. I went to the NICU at 3 am that morning only to see that another baby was in the aisle where Luqman was. He was already actually moved to the semi-intensive side of the NICU. They removed almost all of his oxygen wires and some of his monitoring devices. Around 7 am, I finally got to breastfeed him directly for 2 hours. All day before the nurse would just feed him the expressed milk through a syringe. A specialist reviewed him and said she will give another assessment by noon. By 11 am, the NICU team decided he’s doing excellent, so they finally pulled out all his wires and monitors. We were moved to one of the room in the NICU, until he finished up his antibiotics and his blood tests came out clear of any infections.

Later that day, the same baby that took Luqman’s aisle, passed way due to the baby’s lung being infected with meconium. I was thinking while I was watching the team working on the baby – it could’ve been Luqman there in his place :-( I observed tearfully how calm the NICU team ‘worked’ on the baby. Nothing of the sorts you saw on TV medical drama. They discreetly covered the parts of the aisle with portable cloth screens and I could hear the ‘motorboat’ (a nicknamed given by the NICU for the machine) machine pumping the baby. Everyone else, nurses and doctors alike was up and about continuing with their duties. It was no ‘fun fare’. It’s definitely not a job position & location suitable for me. But I kept telling Luqman from then on, YOU ARE GOING TO BE A CHILDREN’S SPECIALIST & WORK HERE SOME DAY :-)

We continued staying at the NICU for almost 4 days, partly because Luqman was slight jaundiced past day 2 at the hospital. Alhamdullillah, throughout the neonatal period afterwards, when awake he was calm and alert. When asleep, he could sleep throughout, I think perhaps partly because home was so much quiet compared to the loud NICU which, was always brimming with the sounds of the machines and babies crying 24-7. He was really countering whatever earlier problems that he had, and we had to go through, by being the best of babies :-)

Turning 1 year today, I couldn’t imagine life without him, for I almost lose him that day. He’s brilliant (perhaps due to that extra squeeze during labour he..he..he..) and a very lovey dovey baby along with a killer smile that melt and cheer your hearts at the same time. Thanks to my PhD leave, I have been able to breastfeed him fully up until today and Insya Allah will continue to do so throughout the next 2 years. And the best thing of all, pass that first 2 critical days of his life, he has been a very healthy child indeed. Syukran Ya Allah!!

A healthy 1 year old  :-)

To our sweet and loving Luqman, Mama, Babah, Kakak and Abang and the rest of the clan, wishes you happy first birthday. May you stay ever in the pink of health and grow as a Soleh son. We pray that hopefully one day you will be that Doctor or person that helps other children fulfil their dreams, Insya Allah. Amin….:-)

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Kristian Tegar

I'm supposed to finish up an abstract for a conference, but I'm writing this...OOOOO tidak!!! Nampak sgt aku sudah kembali menjadi pem'procrastinate' tegar!

Anyway, bercakap berkenaan tegar, supervisor ku yg terchenta, adalah seorang penganut Kristian yg amat tegar. Setiap kali perjumpaan, pasti aku akan belajar sesuatu yg baru berkenaan agama Kristian (sambil otakku rolling2 nak fikir atau tak nak fikir, apalah yg pakcik ni citer kat aku ni - LOL!). Bagi aku yg tak cukup ilmu ni, byk jugak aku nak libas balik, tp mengenangkan nak menjaga hubungan baik, aku lebih bykkan mendengar. Sememangnya kalau berbual dgnnya, perlukan minda yg terbuka dan hati yg sabar...dan iman yg tegar jua :-) Kdg2 aku pelik jugak, macam mana org intelek sptnya masih tak nampak permasalahan dan 'contradictions' agama Kristian, sedangkan byk kali dia juga dia mengaku, ya, Bible itu seringkali diubah2 mengikut kesesuaian keadaan dan zaman. Dia juga mengakui bhw lebih ramai org Islam yg tahu pasal Kristian berbanding dgn Kristian yg tahu pasal Islam.

Bukan itu shj, kerana dia selalu mempunyai joint venture research partners di Malaysia, maka selalulah dia akan membuat perbandingan perilaku org2 Malaysia, especially Melayu Islam. Pada pandangannya ramai Melayu Islam muda sedang menuju ke arah extremism. Byk juga contoh2 yg dia beri setiap kali dia berpeluang ke Malaysia. Ada sekali tu, katanya ketika dia turut sama (sebagai menghormati org2 Islam lain yg berpuasa masa tu) menunggu waktu berbuka puasa berhampiran Masjid Jamek, ada antara Melayu Muslim yg duduk berhampiran dgn nya membuka perbualan sekadar 'berbasa basi', tetapi isi kandungan perbualan padanya adalah sesuatu yg sgt menyakitkan hatinya. Antaranya, melabelkannya sebagai kafir dan me'maklum'kan yg dia akan 'terbakar' di neraka, dengan penuh sopan santunnya ;-). Pernah juga dia tidak dibenarkan masuk ke sebuah masjid di Johor Bharu kerana dia dikatakan seorang 'kafirun'.

Aduh, sedih betul lah kalau begini, bagaimana lah seorang Kristian, seperti supervisor ku yg tersayang, yg aku sudah anggap spt bapa angkat ku ni nak menerima Islam, sudahlah tegar, selepas itu semua pengalamannya dgn Muslim lain, terutamanya org2 Melayu, menonjolkan betapa tidak 'tolerant'nya dan 'judgemental' nya mereka kpd non-Muslim. Sedangkan Rasulullah pun mengamalkan toleransi, ini kan pulak kita yg belum tentu ke syurga atau neraka, hendak melabelkan siapa yg wajar ke neraka! Maka semakin jauhlah mereka2 ini dan tegarlah mereka di dalam agama2 asal mereka.

Entahlah, kadang2 aku rasa malas nak berfikir. Tapi mana mungkin!! Itu adalah tidak Islamik. Buat masa ini, apa yg boleh kudoakan adalah utk Allah berikan hidayah kepadanya utk menerima Islam suatu hari nanti. Sementara itu, usahlah buat perangai2 buruk spt di atas!! Semoga minatnya utk mendalami Islam akan menjadikannya kelak seorang Muslim yg tegar pula, Insya Allah. Amin.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Whirlwind 2011

Almost 20 hours-worth of interviews audios, countless days, weeks, and months later, Alhamdulillah with a bit of assistance and patience, sheer luck and bad luck, the first draft of ALL my interview transcriptions is finally completed. Only Allah knows, how difficult it has been completing this task, using 3-4 of your senses simultaneously almost all of the time in the transcribing process. Sesungguhnya keluarga pun boleh berantakan kerana nya, otak bisa mereng, hati pula berbolak balik! My only caution to those who said it was ‘kacang peas’: Try and do it for FREE for only 10 minutes of the interview, and I’m sure you’d prefer to eat the ‘kacang’ instead of listening to all 20 hours of the audios!

The relief of actually finishing it, felt like I am almost halfway through this PhD jihad of mine. Although truth be told I have yet to reach that halfway mark. I am still in the data 'inundated' mode. Collecting and trancribing the data took longer than expected, and next comes the analysis stage.

With 4 datelines this month, 2 administratives and 2 more research related, 2011 will surely be a whirlwind year for me. Who said PhD life is boring. Happy new year everybody, have an excellent year :-)