Thursday, May 31, 2012


My review in Ticketmaster:

Review 414 for Moonshadow
4 / 5

Unforgettable 'Wild World'

Princess Theatre
 - Melbourne
 - 29/05/2012
Posted 29/05/2012
by Fadzlina
I am a fan of Cat Stevens/Yusuf Islam, so I thought the whole show was amazing. The set was beautiful. And the show left a lingering smile on me.
The first act was brilliant. Left you wanting more.
But the second act felt a bit rushed, and somewhere between the climax and the end, I was a bit lost. But the music really saved the night.
Highly recommended, especially for the musical numbers, even if you are not a fan.
Favourite moment: My favorite moment was - 'Wild World'! Would go again only if just to see that part :-)

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

A Birthday Prayer for Aliyah

My dear Aliyah,

In your eyes, I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
You were sent to rescue me,
In your eyes
I see who I want to be,
I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be

You are a miracle Allah grants me
You gave me strength when I am weak
I find reason to continue believing
You gave me reason to hang on
when my heart has had enough
I see the light
It's in your eyes

My darling Aliyah

May the road rise to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
And may the hand of loved ones and friends always be near.
And until we meet again,
May Allah be with you and bless you.

My lovely daughter Aliyah S.M.I.H,

Happy 8th birthday
Forgive my absence on this day of yours
I promise I will make it up to you
In your own words and I requote
‘kasih sayang mama kekal ke akhir hayat’

Love, from Mama here in Melbourne 22 May 2012

Sunday, May 20, 2012


Al-Khaliq, it’s a test, I know
For I, have fallen between the lines
Still, my vulnerability leads
And my heart, keeps humming a tune
I haven’t heard in eternity...
O Malikul Mulk, have mercy
I seek refuge in the light of Your countenance
May I eventually find my way home, whole...

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Sekeping Kad buat Mama :-)

I was informed by my DH, it took days for her to complete the card. Well, my darling Aliyah, I am sincerely touched. Loved it! I love you more :-D. Wish I can fly home right away to plant a kiss on your pretty face....

Thursday, May 10, 2012

How Do I Love Thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

~ Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Indeed, if all else fails, I shall but love you better after death....

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

A Prayer for You

My love is in pain,
My heart is crying in vain,
How I wish I can take your place,
So you can be in a better place,
But how can it be with all the distance and space,
I am left praying for Allah's grace,
Please my darling, please convalesce...

Get well soon Uzair Luqman. Can't wait to 'smother' you :-)

A 'Guilt Ridden' Mama

Here in Melbourne. 9 May 2012

Saturday, May 5, 2012

FB vs Me

Point Danger Lookout
It has been awhile since I have written anything 'meaningful' here or any life journal for that matter. A lot has happened in the past couple of weeks – I watched a couple of very good movies, I attended some social functions, my concluding chapter was rejected, a PhD friend got married to a Muslim (Caucasian) Australian, I had an eye problem while I went on a break to Brisbane (and the Gold Coast)! And soon after reaching Melbourne’s soil – I am down with a cold (partly courtesy of Melbourne weather) – still down with it.

I blame my inability to update my blog due to my reattachment to FB. I think being on FB always tends to dull and discourage not only any critical writing in me but also any sort of writing. There's something about writing and posting them to an audience of people I know at different levels that doesn’t sit well with me. Maybe I am just shy ha..ha.. or maybe I am not into courting unfavourable comments. Then suddenly I realised – maybe I just cared too much about what other people have to say and that perhaps I am not open minded after all – surprise, surprise! I think the art of agreeing to disagree is easier said than done. There’s always ‘some hard feelings’ embedded in me – well at least if I am being very honest with myself. I think what remain is trying to be as calm as you can when bombarded with unwanted commentaries. And I don’t do calm very well. At the end of the day – I simply resort to keeping to myself. So the atypical in me becomes dormant! It’s hateable. But I was lonely and my FB activities feed on my loneliness.~ “FB where stalking is made easy!” haha..

However, FB is a very powerful tool of influence (and eventually power). Use it appropriately – it leads to many other beneficial avenues to others and yourself. FB also allows me to see how others express their views on certain issues, make their stand on various other matters and campaign for the thing or cause that they believe in. It gives me a space to reflect on what position should I hold in this world. What’s my role? Who am I? Should I simply be a wife – an improving wife? Should I simply be a mother – an improved mother? Should I be involved more with my community – not simply a law lecturer? What is it I am trying to strive for? Can I do it all? Would it be very overwhelming, then? Simply – what should I do, next (well, after I submit my Phd, of course)? And how should I do it?

But the most important question is – what sort of influence do I want to impart and to whom especially? I know the answers to both questions. What worry me most is the fact that with the presence of FB – how do I do both without having or sowing the feeling of ‘Riak and Takabbur’ in my heart whenever I decide to use it as a tool to convey my messages or deeds. There’s a fine line between ‘Ikhlas’ and showing off. Being human I can’t help wondering on which side of the fence I belong to every time I decide to actually do or say something. Maybe having a ghost account would do hehehehe...Well, I guess at the end of the day, we should always starts ‘Lillahita’ala’ and strive to stay on the path solely for him. Insya Allah then, HE will help us contemplate the best plan of action in disseminating His message of truth in the realm – online and offline.

P/S: Oh yeah, did I mentioned my Conclusion was rejected?! Ahh...well, that needs another post altogether!