Sunday, April 26, 2015

Bully

So it's proven.
You're a bully.
Low self esteem.
So you turned a bully.
So that it makes you feel adequate.
So that it makes you feel superior.
So that it makes you feel complete.
But you know that's all lies.
It doesn't matter, because no matter how hard you try, it's all an illusion.
You'll never feel adequate, superior or complete by being a bully.
I feel bad for you.
I feel sorry for you.
But it doesn't change the fact how pathetic you are.
Don't you dare tell me how to do my work, when you don't even know how to do yours properly.
When I said properly, I meant proper, proper so as not to step on other people's rights but done appropriately anyway.
You're such a conflicting soul.
How can you claim to follow rules you, yourself, never abide too?
How can you claim the moral high ground when you, yourself is a serial liar?
In the end you are just a big fat lying bully.
All the best getting your way in the future!
May it never entails mine ever again.

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Tua

Sebenarnya nak luahkan yang terbuku di hati bab-bab kerja. Kalau ditulis mahunya sakit ibu jari, sbb usually draft mesti dalam notes telefon bimbit. Tapi passion nak marah-marah ni selalunya akan pudar cepat sungguh la ni. Aku ni kalau marah, free flowing jer semua ayat. Bila dah reda dan redho, semuanya hilang. haha lawak jugak tu kdg2. Aku tahu, aku dah tua, tu sbb malas nak marah2, fikir2, sibuk2 dah. Kelmarin bila my DH tanya pasal nak isi apa tah "eh, you bla...bla...bla 36 tahun". then I looked up and cantas him "eh, I dah nak 40 lar, tak lama lagi!" "Ohh ye" kata dia. Yes! I will be 40 soon enough. Although it makes no difference, since I have felt like 40 for so long pun. Now tinggal nak reach the numbers in reality jer hihi...

Kdg2 duduk sorang2 terfikir, kalau mati nanti adakah org yang terkesan dgn aku selama hayat aku ni? Bergunakah aku ni atau sekadar menyusahkan shj? Aku tahu masih byk aku perlu lakukan. I feel I am not worthy of the time and convenience given to me. There's just too much I need to do and I haven't got the chance to do it yet. But life is unpredictable, we never know what awaits us tomorrow.

But for now, I really want to see Morocco. I promised myself I will be there before the end of 2016, In Sya Allah. Now, I must find a way to get myself there! :-D