Annoyance Threshold

Hari ni around noon, 8 years old Haziq, anak Kak Faizah, kakak Feddy (my sis in law) passes away after almost a month struggling with Steven Johnson's Syndrome, Innalilahiwainnailaihiraji'un.

I received the news while still at the office dealing with timetable generation, ding dong dgn big headed staffs yg perlu dituntun buat kerja sampai rasa menyampah giler, trying to paksarela staffs to start off a teaching innovation project for a competition, settlekan review article utk Simon, reconfirming appointment with UHEK for my code's rubrics, and planning for my trip to the JPJ tomorrow morning!

I really wanted to see Haziq for the last time, so I had to pick up everyone from school early, drive everyone home, clean up, solat & drive to Pandan Indah before Asar. I decided to leave Sofiyah at the babysitter & drove over to Kencana with Aliyah. Merempit aku nk sampai in due time.

Alhamdulillah, we got to see Haziq and his family just in time before solat jenazah. Haziq no longer looks like his old self. I can't imagine the pain he needed to go through for all the while he was suffering with the SJS. Hikmahnya, skrg Haziq dah tak menderita lagi dan bakal mendoakan bonda ayahanda di syurga, In Sya Allah. Namun pastinya, bonda ayahanda, kekanda-kekandanya bakal jadi perindu tegar Haziq yang merupakan seorang penglipur lara keluarganya selama ini. Aku doakan mereka tabah. Dalam masa sesingkat kami mengenali Haziq pun kami terkesan dgn kehadirannya apatah lagi lah ahli keluarganya. Semoga Allah hadiahkan kebahagian berkekalan di akhirat kelak dan bakal bertemu kembali di Jannah, Ameen.

I saw Mama at the funeral and got to chat with her about her doctors' appointment today and the grueling treatment schedule all the way till before Ramadan. May Allah have mercy on Mama. I can't comprehend much, too many things going on at the same time, plus it's a really hot day! Masa waiting for funeral pun ada org dok call lg pasal conference this weekend.

I then rushed back to Seremban to pick up Sofiyah. Lunyai bdn lagu ni! On the way, reports about the registration for the teaching innovation competition came in too. Ada part peraturan yg aku tak faham, part bayaran pun aku tak faham kenapa isu yg asalnya mudah boleh jd so complicated?! Dan disebabkan threshold annoyance aku dah sampai limit, aku maleh nk fikir sgt, or else I will simply sembur everyone in the wassap group...

Pastu tetiba alih2 ada committee conference weekend ni dok contact aku mlm2 tanya pasal staff yg opt nk dok bilik single, wondering whether they know depa kena bayaq top up beza kelayakan?? Aku pun dah konpews - tadak akai ka? Dah kelayakan dok berdua, tp nk dok sendirian berhad, mestilah kena top up!! Awai2 lg aku dah habaq kot. Paihtu p tanya lagi, saspen lah aku. Rupanya, nak jd cerita ada yg tk mo byr top up,  tak tau kata kena top up, so tak mo, nk tukaq balik la kot ke twin sharing! Aduhai!! Nyusahkan sungguh! Kalau aku dpt tau org tu mai dr Jabatan aku, Siap!! Aku titik2kan tangan dia! Geram betui!

Sabo je la...sakit jiwa betui manusia gini. On one end, I know of Kak Faizah yg zuhud je orgnya, berusaha redho dgn pemergian anakanda tercinta dgn segala kekurangan yg ada, and on the other end I have pensyarah yg gaji ribu-ribuan yg nk dok mewah tp dok bising2 tk mo byr top up bilik sbb tak tau, which in my mind doesn't make sense at all! Lain kali buat hotel sendiri je la. 202 je utk 2 mlm kot, hotel berbintang2 di langit pulak tu! Aku pun tak faham daaa...

Seriously, mmg annoying giler...

Ya Allah, semoga kau jadikan aku lebih tabah utk tinggikan threshold annoyance limit aku ni. Parah kalau mcm ni selalu huhuhu